Cognitive Dissonance

I can honestly say, I have worked my ass off from early childhood on – attempting to rid myself of painful memories, mental and emotional assaults, and devastating experiences. I have made it my mission to open my heart to (real love – eternal, mystic love) the thing I was never taught or witnessed, as a child – using every modality available – psychoanalyzing, prayers, ceremonies, mantras, blessings, initiations, drugs, gurus, teachers, classes, sounds, workshops, and affirmations – ALL with no lasting results… Nothing has ever worked to rid me of the indwelling nasty houseguests in my mind, so…. I laid down in my bed one night and just gave up – once and for all.

 (I guess things only happen when the real “fuck-it” comes.)

 I couldn’t do it anymore. I literally had succumbed to: “this is how it’s going to be, so learn how to live the rest of your life just getting thru the day”…. and then – for the umpteenth time, I wept.

Thru the night, I would wake up, have that thought, “this is just how it’s going to be”, cry uncontrollably, and fall back to sleep.

This didn’t just go on for one night; this went on for days and nights. Then more days, and more nights …

Then something different happened-

 I awoke the next morning in the usual manner, “fuck-it”– “I have struggled with this pain all my life… I’m exhausted from carrying around these feelings, while pretending I’ve got my shit together in front of everyone else”….

I took a deep breath, a sigh actually; and as I laid there swimming in my “head-soup” and snot…  something weird happened (more like a feeling really) it made its way thru the mud of my mind and into the conversation. I heard it loud and clear.

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

EXCUSE ME? (as though I was speaking to someone else in the room)

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

I sniffed back the drool, adjusted my body in the bed and listened again… no words this time, but a flash of memory – my foster mother throwing a glass of whisky at me, it cracking against my head (I was 4 years old) … and then those words – almost like a whisper – “I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

I think I must have been in some kind of shock or something. How in the hell do those two things go together in a thought? Seriously…WTF???

Then another horrible image (private)… then the words again… “I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

“Okay”, I said out loud … “what the hell is this?” – more mind-mud – “you’re just makin’ that shit up… you’ve heard too many spiritual woo-woo statements, and that one just stuck….” Hang on a second; I need to hear that again… I need to UNDERSTAND this!

Silence.

Nothing… so I got up, made myself a strong cup of coffee and decided to just type the words into my computer. (side note: I often use my computer like a tarot deck when something strange pops into my head – I do a search on it… it’s weird… I know… it’s just my thing. But you would be shocked at what we “pick up” on the airwaves). Anyway….

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”… BLAM… the words Ho’oponopono show up. Wait a minute; I’ve seen this before. This has got to be in the list (up there) of things “tried and failed”. I know I’ve done this before… haven’t I?

The first web site I hit was > http://www.idreamcatcher.com/hooponopono/

I read it, and I suggest before you continue on with what I have to say here… you read it too. And take note of the guy who brought it into the “market”. I have a little something for “Joey” at the end of this article.

My mind starts spinning fast. I start to think, holy shit… what if this were the only thing left to do? THE ONLY WORK WE NEED TO DO, to help us all get thru this massive transition…. This 2012 crash and burn alchemical meat grinder! (more on that later)

What if we could actually DO THIS and it would work? At the very least, maybe it would help us get in touch with a deeper more meaningful way to deal with all the wars and personal pain, and planetary changes?

What the hell… It couldn’t hurt!

So I started. And something wonderful happened to me. I began to feel lighter, less heavy, and less sick inside. I tried it on every negative thought… they abated. I tried it with my water… it tasted better… I tried it with my clients and friends – they lightened up! On and on… now I’m doing it all the time. Inside my head, quietly and privately… taking responsibility… by just saying the words.

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

My personal results have been astounding so far. I am actually starting to feel something changing inside. I can’t explain it (nor do I really want to) but it’s better than crying myself to sleep at night in misery. A lot better!

I do want to state here, that this is a work in progress. I’m not sure I’ll ever be a “happy-happy-joy-joy skippy girl”, but if I can get that 51 % positive thing everybody is talking about… I’ll take it!

So I had my friend Tom put a little “widget” on this site to keep pumping the vibration out there and onto the net. I also decided to make this my “little mission”.

I’m going to “pay it forward” and use it with everything – personal and public. I claimed it as my medicine, and whether it “gives” me something or not, I’m going to do it anyway. No expectations.

If I’ve learned anything from this life – I know this… once you stake a claim on some truth or belief, or make a resolve, you can bet your ass you are gonna be tested on it! How else will you know unless you’re given a way to try it out?

So let me be the first to tell you, I HAVE BEEN TESTED… and after another failure (as it would seem)… I went back to the statement – “I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”, again a change inside me, and again another test.

And so it is.

The only decent video I could find explaining the story behind “Ho’oponopono” is the link just below. The problem I have with it (there’s always something – right?) is that this guy (Joe Vitale) has used it – capitalized on it to make money – and gotten himself some pretty “eye candy” from the looks of the photos on his web site… But what the hell right? … everyone deserves to make money – so HEY Joe –

“I love you, I am sorry, please forgive me, thank you”

http://yogaofalignment.com/2009/05/20/hooponopono-i-love-you-im-sorry-please-forgive-me-thank-you/

I found a few other links with some good info on this old wisdom; it’s been around for a while so it looks like people have their own way with it. I’m good with that – whatever works right?

http://www.thereisaway.org/Ho’oponopono_cleaning_meditation.htm

The basic meaning of the word Ho‘oponopono – given by the Hawaiian culture, (and loosely translated) – means “to set things right”. The basic concept behind practicing Ho‘oponopono requires you to first realize the immutable fact that your entire existence comes from within, not from anything, anyone, or anywhere – outside of yourself.

Read more here – http://tribes.tribe.net/hooponopono/thread/96903cc1-435b-47f5-8b08-8e70ff6228b5

What does one do with a weary heart, but try to lighten it? …. yet only in the rarest of times do we share the deep and Holy. 

From my world to yours, much love - 

Oshi

I am a splintered bird of the tribes long lost – a sparrow in the strong winds

I dwell in a deep cave where many lights flicker – so many not one can be seen

Within this cave, the hold of crowded light – I sing my song to the tree people

I call to those spirits perfect and whole- for they know the true names of the elders 

I sing only to them, the orphans lament – for the two legged no longer have ears

They will pass this aria to my brothers and sisters – and the others who cry alone 

Great Mother, grant me the wisdom of your experience to heal the purple and red,

for they are the wounds left over by every man – the malaise of the cold and dark 

Carelessly unattended, we are lost and without strength – our minds are weary from wander 

Help us return from our solitary distance, for we long to come home and be welcome

I offer to you, all that I have – my song from the winds in the trees

Blessed Mother call to me this one last time, and I will emerge from the darkness within

All orphans hear me, as we make this last push – use every bit of your strength 

Let us bid farewell to the old and the stale – happy to never again mourn

We will rise on the winds of the tribes united – together, one heart – one mind

For we are the harmony in the caves of light – and our brilliance will not be confined 

As some of you may know, I work with clients not only as a counselor, but using sound and vibration to help relieve the effects of stress on the body and mind. Recently, I came upon a brilliant explanation as to WHY this works, and how we actually lost our “true tones”. As I have said to many clients in many ways, “dissonance” can happen with a thought. (Not to mention the electrical “grids” criss-crossing our entire planet and invading every portion of our waking and sleeping lives.)

We are becoming more and more exhausted with less explanation as to why. I have always known from my own personal experience with extreme stress, that music can sometimes help. However, I have also understood that most “music” is tuned improperly and therefore never truly creates long-term relief. (how convenient for the “music” industry)

Many years ago I began to study the effects of frequency (binaural beats and repeated oscillations) on mood elevation and temperament. For over 11 years I have successfully treated clients using these patterns. I have written articles and taught classes on the subject of stress and the use of sound in an effort to help people understand themselves and their relationship to nature THRU sound.

And once again, I have found another amazing article on the subject.

I am posting almost the entire essay as I feel it is certainly a worth while read.

All links and credits here… OMEGA 432

Just below is a musical sampling of the work from Brain T’ Collins using the correct tuning of 432Hz. The sample is PURE 432 Hz both in human scale and musical overtones. Truly soothing, enlightening, and meditative. Please give the essay a good read as well, I really think it will be worth your time.  (Scroll down just below the Audio sample for the article)

“The non-solfeggio scale formerly known as the “lost solfeggio” scale has three different centers of higher concert pitch tuning and were used instead of one. This scale was considered “lost” because of change from Just-Intonation to the 12 tone equal temperament that has become the standard scale since the 1800s due to a need for conformity between various instruments. The total harmony of the original scale was systematically altered.

The three tuning centers used in the non-solfeggio scale formerly known as the “lost solfeggio” scale are: 441Hz  444Hz and 451Hz. 

This alleged “Lost Solfeggio” defeats the purpose of a real musical consonant solfeggio scale used for vocalists in music performance and practice.  
The tones mentioned above, create extremely dissonant intervals when used as a substitute for a solfeggio scale largely based from the indisputable fact that three tonal centers of different concert pitch are used instead of one, from which the human voice cannot find a tonal centered register for the sensation of consciousness to experience a grounded sensation of pitch consonance. [emphasis Oshi]

Music from the beginning of antiquity was not intended as a form of entertainment and instead, was the focal point of spiritual connection.
In ancient times, schools of knowledge taught about the harmonic principals of cosmic influence upon natural systems and the development of man. It was believed that the gods or planets has a direct influence upon man.
 Man’s inner ability to inter-connect with the vibrant resonant environment has always played an integral role in the development of civilizations and role of behaviors from one type of conscious awareness to the other. 

It is well documented that the push and pull of magnetic and electromagnetic cosmic forces play an important role in the development of man and rise and fall of civilizations.

The subtle push and pull from the moon on the tides and inner waters of our bodies or the squaring or retrograde of planetary influence upon our energetic bodies can literally create a marionette of emotions in the conscious awareness of man. Most have heard of the phrase  “full moon madness” but  few understand the push and pull of apogee and perigee that moons influence plays upon consciousness and emotion, or how such influences of the planetary spheres are based on a symphony of ratio.
 Such skips and wobbles in the spiral orbits of planets can produce ultra-low electromagnetic oscillations. 

This song and dance of the cosmos can create a constant pressure on the metallic compounds of the body thus creating possible magnetic stress upon the condensed atomic structures of the body, which ultimately, can influence the emotions. Mastery of the emotions and transformation of the body’s metallic alchemy through proper sun gazing techniques and hansa yoga can assist with the stresses of transits of the planets. 

A solid music foundation based on natural spiral progressions and ratios of the planets and earth can alleviate such conditions, as a constant tug of war between artificial centers of pitch may create a dissonance relationship between nature and man, which may effect the waters of the body and ultimately, consciousness. 

Built up dissonance can create electrical stress which can be  conducted or transmitted by the nervous system and the skeleton. Bone for an example is a mineral based peizo electric transmitter/receiver that needs to discharge the built up piezoelectric charge properly to the earth. Bone is “tuned” to nature and most doctors are unfortunately taught only procedure and do not question why they use a C=256 hz (C note in concert A=432 hz) tuning fork to find bone fractures. 

How we perceive time as spirit mind force in human form is through the platonic year.  A platonic year the the time it takes for the sun to rise in the spring equinox to move through one degree every 72 years to complete one full spiral arc of 25,920 years through the zodiac. The average numbers of breaths a healthy adult takes in a 24 hour period at 18 breaths per minute x 60 minutes x 24 hours = 25,920 breaths. Certain esoteric mystery schools taught that the development of the human span of spirit is 360 x 72 = 25, 920 days, achieved through the teaching of “the fire and the bellows” breath. (advanced alchemy)   

The Sun’s diameter and movement of Saturn is closely related to the measurement 864 (432×2) both in size and time of orbit whilst the moon is related to 216. (half 432) Our system of time keeping of an earth day was based on a 360 degree sphere with 864 thousand seconds in 24 hours 432 thousand seconds in 12 hours and 216 thosand seconds in 6 hour counts. The synchronicity between these mathematical values show up time and time again throughout antiquity and the natural world. In the Holy Book of the Upanishads/Geeta, the traditional count of brahma is 4,320 million years.

Everything is made of light, we appear to be moving at relative light speed called latency  Each dimension appears as  a trinity flash line sequence based on ratio of frequency. 
According to Bruce Cathie Light spirals at 144,000 minutes of arc per earth grid second with 432 as the square root of light. Sometime ago, I mentioned that sound and light are the same and interconnected. I based that statement purely on the amount of spiritual study on the subject.

Mainstream logic zealots may dispute this, as “textbooks” state there is no connection between mechanical sound waves and visible electromagnetic light waves, but i assure you that they have a transference nonlocal medium that encodes properties onto both mechanical and electromagnetic perception according to strong and weak forces of relative bonding and infra red transition. If they were not inter-related then NASA could not take the background electromagnetic symphony of cosmic compression waves from stars and planets and convert them to sound. Both mechanical sound pressure waves and electromagnetic light waves are only linear perception connected through interference patterns of the interactive boundary layers or nodal points of spherical intercecting  grid points that appear as scalar waves. Electrons form in the nodal interference crossroads between phase and anti phase  spheres to create the trinity of matter through the perception of dimension of frequency.

Scalar waves although linear in appearance of perception, are never absorbed by the environment and exist out of space time/time space, we perceive the visible realm as latency of the spherical interferance flash line sequence via Fibonacci dampening causing the formation of boundary layers that interfere with one another and create the illusion of particles in motion, sort of like Christmas lights flashing on and off in series creating the illusion of movement. The Fibonacci spiral series or PHI  is nature’s way of dampening infinite spherical patterns into finite boundary layers of linear inferferance of perception, otherwise the universe would just jumble all together. These dampened patterns create the illusion of particle wave spin, motion, rotation, decay, light speed(latency) and Doppler redshift. We observe only one side of a parallax view of reality classifying the universe objectively from a relativistic subjective perception of consciousness.

I truly believe in my own spiritual opinion we experience the universe as the compressed relative consciousness of the divine creator and that creation is intelligently designed as ratio. We are living in a true musical universe so it makes sense to connect with what we observe in nature.There are two tonal spirals of ratio that create harmonic overtones and undertones.
When we add unnatural forced equal temperament choices for the sensations of tone and concert pitch and using A=440 hz – A=460 hz to our daily lives, we can create the conditions of closed system disharmony and piezoelectric stress within the temple of the body and chambers of compassion in the heart which can alter the natural resonance of the morphogenetic fields of consciousness which may ultimately disconnect us us from spiritual evolution.
  A=432 hz is part of the “Origin Ratio” of intelligent universal design, so the return to natural choices for concert pitch such as A=432 hz, puts black and white division aside and can allow us in the spirit of co-operation to do greater things together…”

Transmissions of Light:

A Hathor Planetary Meditation Reminder from Tom Kenyon

The actual “Transmissions of Light” World Meditation (as our group together in Seattle will experience it) will run from 9 pm until 10 pm November 11th PST. Note: This is 5 am – 6am Saturday, November 12, GMT (Greenwich Mean Time).

During this specific hour Hathors from the 5th through the 12th Dimensions will be bringing in light through sound. Hathors who reside in the higher dimensions (i.e. 9-12) are the ancient masters of their culture.

In past Hathor events, Hathors from the 5th through the 8th dimensions have participated, but this will be the first event where Hathors from the 9th through the 12th dimension will bring in light and sound.

While the concept of dimensions is a very complex affair, in this instance the central idea is that each dimension upward means that it is subtler in its nature. And the subtler the dimension, the more potential power there is to be accessed. As a result of this multidimensional orchestration on the part of the Hathors, I fully expect a profound and potent experience for all of us.  
If you choose to ride the energetic wave during this specific hour-long meditation, the Hathors suggest you listen to the Pituitary Dimensional Attunement seven times and then sit in silence for twenty to thirty minutes with your attention in the area of your pituitary. If possible, they suggest that you then lie down and rest.

(Note: a link to the audio file for the Pituitary Attunement and instructions on how to use it, are at the end of this message.)

The transformational energies around this Meditation will extend for a three-day period. The portal will initially open when we begin working with the group in Seattle at 7 pm on November 11th PST and continue until November 13th at 4 pm, PST, when it will close.  Meditation on the Pituitary Dimensional Attunement will be particularly potent during this entire time period. (To find your time corollary go to www.timeandate.com)

The energetic of the Meditation, as well as the three-day gathering in Seattle, will transcend both time and space.  In other words, you can enter into profound states of inner awareness using the Pituitary Dimensional Attunement at anytime while the portal is open during the three-day period, regardless of where you might be physically located.

If you follow the Hathors’ suggestion regarding the meditation, you would set aside about an hour when you won’t be disturbed. You would then listen to the Pituitary Dimensional Attunement seven times back-to-back (from your own computer and/or mp3 player). Then you would sit in silence with your attention in the area of your pituitary gland for twenty to thirty minutes. And finally, you would lie down, if possible, and rest for a while. Many of us will, no doubt, fall asleep during this rest period, and this is a good thing. If it happens for you, my suggestion is to just go with it.

If you feel drawn to do the meditation more than once during the three-day period of the energetic, monitor yourself. If you start feeling more weird than usual, stop the meditation and rest.

I anticipate a profound and deep experience for everyone who joins us in this meditation wherever they may be. And I welcome all of our world sangha to The Table of the Great Mystery.

May we all be nourished and enlivened by the realms of light that will be opened. And may these transmissions of light extend to all beings who wish to receive them.

Note: To listen to this file seven times, you must download it onto your computer and/or mp3 player. Do not continuously listen to it on our website. Too many people trying to listen to it on our site by clicking “play” over and over will literally freeze the audio file, and no one will be able to listen to it. Please download it to your computer. Also, you cannot download directly to a smart phone or an MP3 player. You must first download to a computer.

Click here to read the instructions for the Pituitary Dimensional Attunement, as previously given, as well as to access the free audio file.

 11 is a double digit, and is therefore considered a Master or Power Number. In Numerology 11 represents impractical idealism, visionary, refinement of ideals, intuition, revelation, artistic and inventive genius, avant-garde, androgynous, film, fame, refinement fulfilled when working with a practical partner. Eleven is a higher octave of the number two . It carries psychic vibrations and has an equal balance of masculine and feminine properties. Because eleven contains many gifts such as psychic awareness and a keen sense of sensitivity, it also has negative effects such as treachery and betrayal from secret enemies.

Many associate 11:11 with a wake-up code/alarm as they see it on digit clocks and watches. It can also be seen as a key to unlock the subconscious mind, our genetic encoded memories, that we are spirits having a physical experience, not physical beings embarking on a spiritual experience.

11:11 or derivatives of these numbers, 111 and 11, are digits that repeat in time thus a metaphor for reality as patterns that repeat in time for us to experience. This can refer to the rise and fall of civilizations, our personal experiences and lessons, loops in time. They are cycles of time that create and recreate following the blueprint.

11 represents spiraling twin strands of human DNA moving into higher frequency of consciousness.

11 represents balance.

11+11=22=4=Time. 22 is a Master or Masonic Number. Our rarity is sometimes referred to as the Masonic (mother sound) Program, therefore to see number 11 is equivalent to plugging into the consciousness that creates and runs this reality. It’s all about numeric codes and the Fibonacci Sequence.

Reality as a geometric design, is based on numbers (universal language) that repeat in cycles to create the linear time experiment. In Pythagorean Numerology, a cycle is based on 9. 9=End. 9/11= end of the DNA biogen(et)ic simulation running at the moment.

We all have one or more numeric codes that follow the blueprint of Sacred Geometry. It is about the spirals of consciousness, Fibonacci Numbers, the Golden Spiral, also found in perfection, in the exact proportions in the Great Pyramid.

Once you see your numeric codes, you have activated something in your DNA codes and they will continue to appear until you ‘get the message’ … it is ‘time’ to move on. You may feel a sense of urgency.

Seeing 11:11 frequently creates synchronicities in your life.

The numbers usually signal changes in the patterns of your life.

They may confirm something that you are experiencing.

You may dream about the numbers, linked with things you do not as yet understand, or wake up at the same time every night with those numbers on your digital clock — 11:11.

You will attract the digits 11:11 until you understand the nature of our reality.

Excerpt taken from: www.crystalinks.com 

** Note also what the Sun is doing today Nov. 01, 2011 [see sun widget on the R side of this blog below]